Really, you don't know why I'm mad?

Look...

look at the time.


Go ahead.


IT'S 2:56 am!!!!

Of course I'm mad.



If you wonder why we're so far apart lately. Why I feel like i'm so far from you at the moment...it's because you've put this distance between us.

We never hang out.

This causes a problem.

So your solution is to bring your friends over to our dirty ass house in the middle of the night when I have to go to school in the morning????


it's fucking 3am!




How inconsiderate can you be?





This is all my fault.



I decided I was done with him and for some reason I am still here. I hate what my life has become with him around lately. I feel like i'm wasting away. I'm stagnant. If I continue to be with him, this is what my life will become.


nothingness


shit.


less than shit.



I cannot have a conversation with him.


I have tried to talk to him, tried to tell him what I am feeling and nothing gets done. It's like my words are fucking noooot really coming out of my face.



and the fucking whining!?!?!?!?


get real.



oooooor he gets so upset and starts yelling because he is threatened. "I don't want you to be mad at me"

SO FUCKING STOP BEING SUCH AN IDIOT AND TAKE MY FEELINGS INTO CONSIDERATION.


ACTUALLY TAKE SOME TIME AND THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU DO BEFORE YOU DO IT. WHAT YOU SAY BEFORE YOU SAY IT.

I'm trying to make this work, I'm trying to do this, but it's not worth all of the effort if I'm the only one doing it.




if you feel alone and like you're the only one doing the work, then you probably are.





I keep reading my other blogs, same shit different day.

something has to change.